I'm with Rosewater on this.
My explorations took me over the precipice of death.
Fortunate for me, I did not die.
Yeah sounds so mystical, like how they romanitice things in movies.
But it wasn't. It was extremely painful and scary.
But I found what I was looking for, actually far more than I was searching for.

There is no guarantee a person will find what they are looking for while searching, or how long they have to search.
But if you don't search and explore, you are guaranteed to not find anything.

I'm still awed at the things I am discovering, but oh boy, did I have to go through some hell to find it.

I'm actually going through a rather unusual valley of darkness at the moment.
It ain't fun, but I continue becaus I have experienced breakthroughs before, so the pain I am experiencing at the moment is temporary
and will be transformed into more joy, peace and understanding...and more self empowerment.