I feel unqualified to advice you or comment on how it feels like to be in a wrong body or wrong gender, so I will skip that part. However, every single one of us are here on a journey to evolve and we chose the different paths to help us with that. Your male gender is what you chose as a tool to evolve precisely for the challenges that it is giving you now. You came to overcome that and learn to accept yourself wholy. It is no use to abandon the current life and focus on the past or next life because this life is where it is at.