|
You could try praying, and just tell him what's up, that you'd like to have a relationship with him, and whatever else you want. When I was going through a horrific time in my life I did that very thing and did get an answer from Christ, though it was more like the Christ that lives inside me, taking the form of Jesus. I went to Church for a while, as I was so blown away by my experience, but decided it wasn't for me.
I'm now trying to work out my place in everything, but the point of me posting this was to let you know that prayer works, and I recommend trying it. It's obviously not my place to tell you what to believe and how you should live, and trust me, that is NOT my intention in saying this, but I would encourage you to explore other ancient texts and sources, not just the Bible, as I feel that although it does contain truths, it is not the one and only, ultimate, infallible word of God.
Sorry if I rambled there, I'm sure other people will chime in here.
Best of luck to you, Emilyanne-X
:)
|