you're getting rather possessive about it, but I also realise love will do that....just be a bit more mindful of it".
Love is the key !
My Guru lineage says to repeat the mantra with love.
I tend to forget to do it with love. Focusing more on trying to do the japa
continuously, creating a kind of tension in the consiousness.
Then when I become aware of that, and repeat the mantra with love, I get in another state....
Wish it could be more often.