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Originally Posted by shivatar
if spiritual enlightenment is the release/death of the ego, why would my ego want me to seek rapid spiritual development?
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Have you ever heard this expression? "We don't know where we are going but we're making good time"
The ego seeks stimulation and excitement. But this is counter to spiritual advancement. You are by nature a very creative powerhouse. But if you are seeking excitement then what happens is the creativity just creates more interesting excitement but you are not actually making progress. You wind up going horizontal creating ever new "experiences" that appear to change but you are really repeating patterns without realizing. Even spiritual activities can become exciting stories but without depth. So no real progress is made.
If you want to advance spiritually you need to focus on harmony and depth. You need to go inside and get quiet.
The depth scares you at first because it appears empty. You need to face yourself and your fears because you are no longer distracted by stimulation. Those fears are exactly the things that need to be addressed in order to advance. But they are never as big as they appear and will dissipate surprisingly quickly if you can get to the depth and sit with it and not get stuck to it. Don't allow it to generate another drama, just observe and let go as best you can.
The harmony is very important because as your vibrations increase anything out of balance that will become very powerful. Like an unbalanced gyro your psyche will self distruct if you try to push it too fast before the harmony has been established.
Think of an ice skater. When they extend themselves outward they go very slow. Like when the ego extends you into all kinds of activity. But when the skater wants to spin quickly, they pull themselves in toward the center and in perfect balance. That is how you get speed. It is also where you get true power and creativity.