Thanks. This night I woke up on my own I guess from the dream or memory and the feeling he was outside. one time we fought (not the break up) and he would wait outside my home (was with ma) for God knows how many hours, by the pavement, so not even sitting in a car. By the time I got out there was a light of hope in hi s eyes but then his whole body seem so stiff after that position for so long. I have not thought of this for so long. it would happen after he had broken up our engagement wedding too. he would be outside waiting in the day and in the dark. but I wouldn't go out. one time i really hesitated on what to do. But I didn't do it. eventually he went away. when it had happen in the past he did not wish to fight no more. he would then be not apologetic perhaps but careful, sweet. he would just get a light in his eyes. We would talk. I would go inside again. He would go away. Always him ending with a kiss and deciding with me when to see each other again. I would sleep like a baby. Anyways it was a special feeling last night to wake up like that, what ever it was.