The term twin flame is new to me. I came across it in my research when trying to understand a recent experience with a man I just met. I kept digging and some seem to believe that a narcissist can kinda throw their energy into you to seem like someone connecting with you though. I don't know what this was...
I felt his heart chakra...
Now, I deal with a lot of contractors. I am to some extent empathic and get a pretty good read on each person, but this experience felt otherwordly to me. It was a very unexpected and intense connection.
I have only felt one other persons heart chakra in my
entire life (30+ years.)
The first time I met this contractor I felt a magnetic pull. I was also intrigued by and attracted to the glimmer in his eyes. This was not a shallow physical attraction. I will just say he wasn't quite my type. I instantly shook his hand and invaded his bubble, which I could tell he didn't expect and neither did I. Here I was way too comfortable with him though usually I am aloof and formal.
I just felt like I liked him. I felt drawn. And I felt like he just let me into his bubble like, sure, come on in.
Now during this time I started to feel his emotions and other very strong impressions of whats going on in him whilring around in me. And it was refreshing, and even a bit enchanting. This is harder to explain for me.
I hired him for a few different jobs, and during this, I could feel his heart chakra connecting with my own -- a cord made of energy connecting our chests, I felt touched mine, tunnel in. It was strong, unmistakable. His chest was facing me often and I felt him focusing on me.
At one point after feeling his heart chakra and mine mingling, it was almost as if he was pulled like a magnet to stand just inches from my chest. It seemed unprompted by anything. We were just in this room standing maybe 2.5 feet apart when he just, stepped that close. I stepped back because I was still trying to be professional. I thought maybe he hadn't thought to do it then done it... maybe it was like something pulled him. Maybe. His other guy was in the room so I didn't think it was a calculated play that braisingly...
I felt an intense closeness to him, as if we had known each other already.
The next time he was over to do some work, the conversation deviated from professional to personal, and I could feel what he was feeling. We were both tapped into this feeling of just enjoying each others presence so much we were high on it... tickled... delighted... giddy... He was smiling from inside, laughing easily, looked to the side a lot... it was bubbling up inside both of us. I purposely dropped all my guard, filters down, and let him feel everthing inside me.
Usually I am shut up tight with a poker face or formal smile.
This felt like a first date, and he kept dismissing his painter like he was an annoying overly-attentive waiter when he came over with a question.
At one point he said to me "thank you for trusting me" and I said well thank you for trusting me too and gave him a playfully dainty handshake which made him blush and look to the side. I will put it this way, had it actually been a first date it would have heated up very fast.
I felt so uplifted even by our small talk, and I could still feel the way our heart chakras had connected after he left. It all left this strong imprint on me and it was all that whirled around in my head for days.
Then I felt this hole in my chest like I missed him, longed for him. I really wanted to explore what that was between us and I just wanted to be near him. Doing anything, talking about anything.
He retuned once again about a week later to drop something off,
and he acted absolutely terrified of me... stood ten feet away and when he had to reach near me did quickly and cautiously like I am a snake! This was a bit devastating for me and I don't know what all of this... is.
Thank you in advance for anyone who made it through this long post. I am just at a loss here... kindred spirit, narcissist, twin flame... or just random and meaningless. I am so confused.
