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Originally Posted by GaiaWSO
Every single astral projection I've ever had involves lying in my bed and then a man comes in and either spoons me or embraces me in some way. Sometimes I'll see him, sometimes I won't. This most recent one involved him walking around my room while I was AP-ing and had sleep paralysis. He laughed at something and I sternly told him, "It's not funny." Then he came around to my side of the bed and caressed my face. I ended up hugging his arm to my chest. None of it's scary or anything... It's just very bizarre. And I wake up the next day kind of lost in my thoughts about it, because it feels very real. I feel the warmth of his skin and everything. There was like a while string of these astral projections a few months ago and I got very angry with him because he just comes and goes like it's nothing, but the process it takes to get me to AP is a huge pain in the neck for me. I get very irritable about it. I don't know...
I tried to talk to him about it once because he admitted he likes to mess with me and joke around, but he's also sensitive and hates being called out on it. He's just using me to get his kicks it seems and it's kind of annoying. Like, why get into my bed and do intimate things like cuddle with me and hold my hand? It's ridiculous. I feel like I live a double life. I've got my real life where I have zero interest in sharing my bed and then I've got this dream/meditation life where this guy acts like the awkward shy kid who doesn't know how to treat girls so he just kind of insults them. I get super real with him about it and he gets all pouty and clingy. He lied to me so many times that I stopped believing anything he says and he'll respond by dragging me into astral and doing something like caressing my face or holding my hand... like that at all makes up for the times he's been rude to me.
I just needed to vent. I don't know how to feel about it. I'm not a super warm, cuddly person. I'm kind of affection-avoidant because it makes me feel smothered but he's been showing up for like two years so we've formed some kind of bond, if you could call it that. He used to cause me a lot of problems, but it seems like I've found a balance in the past two to three months with how to deal with the unseen versus the seen world. He's not a negative entity, and if he was, I must've become stronger or something because nothing out there seems to affect me physically or psychically. I went through a really tough time in the past year with negative entities and worked really hard on myself to the point where I don't get attacked anymore and my life is going really well. So, I don't know who or what he is... If anyone has suggestions or ideas, let me know. Thanks for reading.  |
Honestly this is always the same story. It starts out seeming harmless and almost very well intended like a very loving and sensual thing, but over time the beings behind these experiences begin to reveal their truth - I think they can't help but do it. It's almost like they want us to know what they are and accept it. And they do it in layers like an onion because if they revealed it all at once we would want nothing to do with them. But it's sort of like indoctrination and programming. Basically they slowly push the boundaries of what you view as acceptable a very little each time until eventually they are full-blown raping you against your will. I know that sounds harsh and I probably sound like a fear monger but it is the truth and they have been doing it already anyways while you're not conscious to your astral body. The reason he gets irritated when you question him is because questioning him will reveal the truth. Free-will plays a huge role in this and so if he lies to you about some things it removes the law of free-will. Do not get me wrong because at some point in time they will completely destroy what you think is your free-will if this goes on long enough and they will certainly lie to you. But there is a weird fine line that they seem to teeter on between you allowing this to happen and them doing what they want. And by questioning him you are using your free-will to find out the hidden truth and that angers them. They also get irritated because they know that will likely lead to you not asking anymore questions. Either that or they will refuse to answer your questions, but their silence is your answer. They really do have us Humans and our way of thinking down to a science and they can play us like a finely tuned instrument to the point where we think we're the ones in control, when in reality it's quite the opposite and we're just playing into their hands. Although they do lack some key emotions such as real compassion toward others, love, honesty, and so forth although their emulations of them can be done very believably over single and shorter experiences. But over time you can't help but notice how hollow those emotions are with them - they are extremely fake.
If you want to see the truth about this being keep asking questions even when he's irritated and his actions and words will show you the truth that has been hiding underneath what once seemed like mischievous playfulness. Or when you can see him say to yourself something along the lines of "God show me the entire truth that hides behind the illusions." You could even ask him to show you what he really looks like. He has obviously developed a taste for you and as part of the indoctrination they will usually show you a less-human form of themselves more so based in reality than the Human illusions. Although they probably won't show you their true image but they will change their color of skin, or their eyes, or something along those lines. And then your gut will tell you what you're dealing with. Which is an incubus, vampire, djinn, demonic spirit, reptilian, call them whatever you want. They are likely all one in the same. These are the only type of beings involved in this activity and it always starts out friendly and sensual and caring. Where it ends is somewhere you don't want to go so you need to resist it now as strongly as you can. It's going to lead to more suffering and a huge backlash from him because you've been giving yourself to him willingly for some time, but the deeper you go the worse it gets. So back out while you still can... That is my deepest advice speaking from personal experience.