Can you explain more about what you say here. "Finding your complete presence" sounds very subjective and not something that is easy to do if you don't know what it is.....

I get caught up in trying to know which is the right course.

I have a thought, a negative one (at the moment it is about a person who is bothering me) so I think to myself "that's not very enlightened, try to think of a positive reason why this person is affecting you"... and then I switch and think "but this is my truth, I am entitled to my truth and that is that I don't like this person"