Your story is interesting and one that rings home in me about my own awakening and the nature of others and how they perceived me walking through that and the journey further down the track.
I had some lessons to learn in the face of them around finding that deep connected feeling in me that would not be shaken by the external reality. It wasn't easy. I struggled with others, knowing what they were engaging in, how they viewed reality, how they viewed mine, but I never gave up, always honouring myself regardless.
I learned through that aspect of the journey, that I could either begin to walk tall no matter what the world around me wanted or expected me to be, or I could shrink down and be miserable. I choose to walk tall and in time, my reality shifted slowly once more. I began to notice that I could live within the scope of the whole and be happy. My created reality is mine, I share it with many, some I know not to waste my time. Overall since that time of feeling the way I did, things have improved dramatically and people and life support me now in wonderful ways. My reality is accepted now, but when they *saw* me walking through the *unknown* unearthed for my journey it pushed them deeper into that space of thinking I was a crazy person...I just became all the more determined to keep holding my space.
I suppose I had to learn to reconnect to people and this earth in a new way. This helped me to find my place in a world and showed me that the more you face the resistance in others and let go, accept them where they are and get on with life, things turn out for the best.
Of course your feelings are you own and that is how you feel. No one can change your feelings only you.
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