No need for apologies, it happens.
I will try here to give an example of the spread with the last reading (or the warning) to try and clarify how I read and interpreted the cards during this particular reading.
Set and centered to middle of cross- The card which represent female query if I am not mistaken number 18 or 19 I believe it may be 18, and male query is 19 or vice-versa, forgive me I do not have the deck in front of me as I do not often take them out.
Now before I had done this reading for self, I had prepared a Wiccan bottle- protective, for protection. I did not at the time feel I needed protection so much as had wanted to ward off negativity.
I mention this because of the spread and the way in which the cards played out. On the bottle with blessing water I had drawn an X. It came to me in the moment, I was actually shocked after had done it.
Query card female- Card directly above this card was The Rapiers. Angelicstar you may remember this card from the deck or not, but if you have the deck, it is one of the bunch. Now I saw the Rapiers above the Query, fine, wasn't finished turning cards yet.
Now with the spread I use it is a cross with two rows each side around the query card, cards are interpreted by closest to furthest.
So there was that right above me The Rapiers.
Further to the bottom right of the spread there is a broken Mirror card, or the broken mirror or shattered glass. Alright, to the left came either the scythe and the coffin next to that- I had these together with a previous warning, then one of the cards top right came up the railroad crossing, or tracks. Then I viewed the spread, and when I saw the Rapiers where they were next to the railroad and the mirror glass, and the coffin and scythe together. Bells rang.
It was the railroad track that put it together for me, as when I thought of that card in this sequence I remembered the last person whom spoke of railroad tracks with me. This individual I had felt harassed by. The Rapiers, the X looked like over me to be that I somehow had marked myself with the broken mirror- which spoke volumes to me of the previously prepared bottle.
I had decided I wanted to try usage of my pendulum with this reading to practice reading tarot for others here, and so decided to ask of the pendulum to finish the read. "Is this an accident"? Yes. "Does it involve someone else"? No. "Does it involve myself"? Yes. "Will it be disastrous or fatal"? No. "Will harm come to me"? Yes.
I was on edge for hours after this reading. Wondering what it was in regards to and whether or not it was a false reading, all matter of things up to Are spirits, or entities messing with my pendulum? Thoughts.
I eventually asked it if the situation or accident had come to pass. It indicated yes. To make sure I waited one more hour, then went out of doors to relax on the steps out front.
And then I was made uncomfortable by a man, a neighbor, who was walking straight at me, had not said a word, straight over to me, acting very strangely or I had felt strange as he was walking very quickly towards my step where I had been seated, did not halt, walking dead on, and neither of us had said a word.
I had caught him first at of the corner of my eye and turned to look him dead on. By the feeling that someone else was present, as he had been standing away at first and in a blind spot.
I knew then I had to stop him, And I did not want to act and act irrationally in case so I felt that I had to say something, and I said to him verbatim- "I assume you want to be punched in the throat"? I had no other choice I felt then to say that, and I will say I feel my words entirely justified. The man was quickly approaching me without a word, completely out of normal behavior- if he wanted to ask for something he would have. He caught me off guard, but it was more than that. I can sense these things sometimes. Like Braille.
To end, after I had spoken he looked like he snapped to looked around a bit to see how many others were present, there was a man hammering around his house, but I could hear and see he was atop his ladder at the roof, unable to help for the most part, and then the man- neighbor who had been charging at me, looked the part of creeping, and actually had the audacity to stand there a few moments after backing up staring at me, then got into his vehicle back across the street and left.
Yes I told someone about this, my father whom started out the conversation or the first things out of his mouth after being told were, so you threatened the guy? You don't know what he wanted, for all you know he could have wanted to ask for a cigarette".
My Cold response- Then he would have said something.
Again from my father- So you threatened the guy, he could have had the cops here on you for that-
My Cold response- No. I made an assumption. With his behavior of character, I
assumed he wanted to get punched.
That is the best way I have of explaining the reading I spoke of and how the cards played out, and how by intuition and the pendulum I interpreted them.
And I am still very confused about this experience, and why it happened, and why I felt like I saw a warning with the cards.
And it is the reason I decided to do energy readings instead of offering Tarot readings, because I had wanted to try Tarot in combination with pendulum.
It is also the reason why now I will not even touch the cards. I am afraid to.