p.s. I experienced shock a great deal when I was younger and may have been diagnosed with something like this if someone was given the chance (among other diagnostic criteria that may have applied). I still tend to check out of my body and certain times and when certain 'triggers' are present but I am healing at very deep levels. I commend you for wanting to do the work!!!!! You might find some benefit in studying Buddhism or Mindfulness or Distress Tolerance skills. I really think it has a great deal to do with acceptance and self-love. And I personally believe that Heart-Centered hypnotherapy is a good way to get there. It will help to identify life patterns and heal trauma at the source.