Hi again Sparrow
Thank you so much for your response, it really has made a difference to me. I literally have no one to talk to about these feelings and worries and so they've been going around my mind for some time, in turn making me feel like there is no way out.
I trusted that you would never let your agenda get in the way of my experiences and views. From your answers you've given to others, it's clear to me that you try to encourage others to experience their truth rather than take anyone else's truth, including yours, as the only way. I respect your approach and as I said before, your compassion and patience, so I felt you would be a valuable guide for my situation. I was right about that.
What you said about me finding myself does speak to me. As lost as I feel in many ways and as much as I feel it's all meaningless and I'm just depressed etc, there is a part of me that hears what you're saying and agrees with it. I did wonder before if it was some kind of process I'm going through as I'm so completely opposed to reading any kind of spiritual text - really weird for an avid reader like myself. I feel exhasted and lethargic at the thought of reading anything like that. It's as if I'm mentally burnt out when it comes to the whole subject. So yes, if it's a letting go, part of a cycle, then that does explain how I'm feeling. I just wish I could trust it more, but I guess that too is part of letting go of the unknown and letting what will happen, happen. I don't feel any desires at the moment - I wish I did - but I guess that can't be forced.
Those are really useful questions, thank you. I really needed to hear something practical. I guess I need to focus on bringing the inside out, rather than the other way around. So you're saying that if I can find what I want to bring to the world, what is most important to me in giving to the world, then the spiritual path will become clear to me?
I am continuing with meditation but am trying not to make it part of any particular belief system other than just to sit with myself in the peace and open my mind and heart to something greater that will guide me to where I need to be. Hopefully I will find my way forward. I'm doing my bit in the world too so will see where that takes me.
Thanks again Sparrow for yuor response it has really helped
Hemera xx
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Originally Posted by Spirit Guide Sparrow
Dear Hemera,
Let me start by saying hello to you and a warm welcome to what I hope to be a beneficial dialogue for you.
I am so pleased you are able to recognize the values which I represent and the intention through which I approach this interactive internet community. I am not here to inflate any sense of ego or infiltrate anyone’s sacred beliefs, nor am I here to try to persuade others to think a specific way, but to open their hearts that they may recognize multiple ways. I am here as a light that I may illuminate much of what is seldom in plain sight, that I may bring the light of day to the darkness of their night.
Spiritual matters do not hold the same interest as before because you are actually practicing what you have absorbed in knowledge. You are not lost, you are actually finding yourself. You are letting go, releasing, and detaching, which eventually also involves spiritual interests and attractions. This is appropriate, and it also part of a process, which will again resurrect new future peaks of spiritual pursuit and experience. It is important that you understand your development and growth is not a linear straight line, it is a rhythm and a wave form which takes place in cyclical cycles. To be able to be open to new wisdom, new experiences and new opportunities of self-creation one must be willing to surrender what has already been obtained and created. In a sense this is what you have been doing. Where there is an accumulation of energy, there follows an appropriate release, as my friend was the birth of your universe. You are presently experiencing the period following your so-called big bang, where the release of what you had held in place is now working to create something else for you to experience.
Understand the things you do, which all do, which you as a human call spiritual, is not an end in and of itself, but rather a means to an end. What I mean by this is that your spiritual pursuits, as are all your pursuits, merely a vehicle for you to aspire closer towards something else. When a desire for something else or something more enters your awareness you will again feel the desire to pursue the means.
Instead of stumbling from left to right confused over which religion or which philosophy is more appealing, simply focus on what it is you wish for yourself as a being. What aspects of yourself do you aspire to experience, and what are your deepest core values which you wish to bring to the planet? What gifts and qualities do you have within yourself that help you to create who you are to the world? If you can answer these questions then you can pursue the means most appropriate. Be persistent, patient and positive in your pursuits, but do not adhere to them should they no longer align to your core values and aspirations.
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