yeah on the empath thing but I've got another take on the meaning of this whole situation.
I thought for a long time I was 'all that' and had 'rights to her' and that I 'didn't deserve this from her'. And was seething mad about the whole thing. But it turned out I had a lot of wrong ideas about the whole thing.
First, I'm not all that.
Second, I'm learning I have no rights to any other human being and if we interact at all it isn't because they HAVE to interact in some desirable way to make me feel satisfied.
Third, and possibly most importantly, I got enough info out of the spiritual realm to decide I probably DID deserve this treatment.
it doesn't change the facts, we aren't together. And likely won't be.
And that will never quite be 'comfortable'; there will never be a permanent ending where I can 'close' this 'chapter' one way or the other the way I so badly crave.
But at least now I don't get mad every time I think about her...
and having gotten beyond those basic misconceptions about my 'place' in her 'reality' I'm able to understand about other things I've thought about which really, just aren't true.
In summary, I've been eating a lot of crow...