[babaji]

Originally Posted by OmonRa

Yeah! I love all pets, but cats are awesome :P. Go to the local SPCA/animal shelter and look for pets that need adopting! I never actively looked for a pet, I had several dogs pass through my life that I could have adopted but it just never worked out. But then I got my cat. He was a stray from a litter that my boss was fostering, they gave him to me as he was the last one that wasn't adopted. He's been my little buddy ever since. To a degree, I think the pets 'choose' you, so visit a few shelters, if they're around. And maybe just volunteering at a shelter/rescue could help too? It can be emotionally difficult, especially if it's not a no-kill shelter, but if you can't own a pet due to your living situation or otherwise, it could work as well.

As for your past trauma, I'm sorry to hear that. I truly hope you can ease the pain in your heart.

Yeah. Volunteering could definitely possibly work... considering I don't have the means to adopt right now..

Also may try ayahuasca. Maybe that will work? I hear of people crying their eyes out on it, and that would be great for me. Just sayin.

Originally Posted by pluralone

Babaji, when I first began to explore my spirituality I had some very intense experiences as well. The purpose they served was to confirm - a sort of 'proof' - that I was headed in the right direction (for me). As I moved forward the intensity lessened, which allowed me to incorporate my spiritual path into my human life.

I still have intense experiences on occasion; they usually occur when I've come to a crossroads and have made a choice regarding which way to go from there, and they continue to serve the purpose of confirmation that I'm headed in the right direction. Once that purpose is fulfilled the intensity lessens considerably.

For me, these intense experiences are only briefly useful. As two of my personal goals are to 1) find and maintain my balance (physical, mental/emotional and spiritual) and 2) to incorporate spiritual awareness into my everyday life, my forward progress would be hindered if I continued to experience such extremes.

This may not apply to your situation, but I suspect it might. Perhaps you've been given these intense experiences as confirmation that you're headed in the right direction. Could be that you'd actually progress farther in clearing out all that negative energy by a more mindful process than having it done for you in quick, intense increments. Could be that, as others have suggested here, you're learning to heal yourself and to clear out that negative energy on your own.

Having help while you proceed with your healing/clearing can be quite beneficial, and so as someone else suggested here, if you're able to adopt a cat it might be exactly the helper you need, not to continue with those intense experiences but rather to support your mindful efforts to heal/clear yourself.

Just my take on it.

In any case, please keep us posted as you explore your options and figure things out. =-)

Thanks for your advice, man.... I'll definitely keep it in mind.