[Sugar-n-Spice]

I experienced this after letting someone I really love a LOT out of my life combined with repeated trauma. When I was really young I encountered some Chinese philosophy on depression and these types of traumatic situations. In western civ we tend to resist these feelings and try to revive what we feel is correct. Eastern civ- don't resist. Live through it as a season that passes, like our natural seasons; winter, summer, spring and fall. What you have endured, well you have to let it play out and give yourself time to resolve it. Allow yourself to have your thoughts and to examine them--but live as you are doing, and it will pass.