It must be hard going through this for that long, and listening to the chattering. Was she talkative in person? Mine could talk your ear off!
I get a strong sense of presence too, I compare it to haunting me.
I'm always looking at/listening to men in his age group, like I'm some kind of weirdo, lol
But I can't help being drawn to you dudes. hahahah
Knock on wood no arthritis for you!