[7luminaries]

Originally Posted by Richard Norman

I am what you would call a mystic, I have experienced three powerful mental upheavals, that have changed my perception of who I am, I am simple and like an innocent child. The first mental upheaval was when the masculine Christian creation deity was revealed in my imagination, the spiritual illumination was the product of a powerful intuition, the day of judgement happened for me in that instant, I became divine spirit in a permanent state of religious spiritual ecstasy, this happened within my unconscious mind, within the unconscious mental image of the father. In an instant I was in space, in eternity and face to face with the Christian Godhead, technically I was born again as a Saint in Heaven. But I had inner demons, though my Spirit was perfect and divine my soul was not, I had a black demonic soul, no redeeming features, but over the past 20 years, inspired by a God revealed in my heart and imagination I freed myself from these terrible destructive demons, acute neuroses, 6 months ago I confessed a great sin and freed myself from a more normal neurosis and attained a valid enlightenment. I can think clearly, am rational and have achieved the object of a full Jungian psychological analysis. I say this just to give you a background of myself, I am inspired by what Christian theologians call God the Father, I am divine spirit, with God in Heaven, but I am also very rational, though I am immortal I am simple, I have nothing in my intellect, because of the way my psyche and soul have unfolded I have the intellect of an infant but I do now have quite complete access to the rational left hemisphere of my psyche. So I am in heaven with God and you would think that would be enough, but I am the hero inspired by love, and legend says that the hero, after descending into the underworld to rescue the maiden and defeating the demon, incurs a deep psychological wound, this legend applies to me, I do have a deep wound in my soul, but I am actively healing it. What concerns me is my Soul not my Spirit, what will happen to my soul after I let go of my shell, I have done wicked things for most of my life, I still run an internet business like a ruthless businessman, but I have no choice but to create beauty, I must create for God is my Father, so I am far from perfect and though I have been redeeming myself for many years I still wonder about my karma, I'me not kidding I have done wicked things, I have lied, cheated stolen, I have never killed a man or raped a woman but I have done just about everything else, now God says to me, don't worry, I have given you immortal life, not literally, he doesn't say much, he just creates the universe, but that's the feeling I get. But what happens to my Soul, to my feminine aspect, legend says the hero bears a psychological wound that can never be fully healed, this means I cannot perfect my Soul, this is the cross I have to bear, but what will happen to my less than perfect Soul when I die, I am immortal, I will not die, therefore I will continue, my spiritual soul will continue after death, but after that my intellect fails me, my intuition tells me that reincarnation is the key, I guess I am some kind of Angel, but it is the bad karma attached to my actions that concerns me, that God will have mercy on me I have no doubt, I have faithfully served him in Heaven for 30 years, but will I have the option of returning in some way, I would return for the sake of my only beloved daughter Eden, I ask the question what will happen to my spiritual soul.

Richard, your conscience is awake, so that's always a good thing.
You can see your life clearly and honestly...though with perhaps some anxiety over past deeds, which is understandable. We are only human, and remorse can also create worries that we may not be able to atone or reconcile in this lifetime. Which is of course, the only place we ever are...i.e., the current lifetime.

I would say that where you are able, reach out with love and humility and express your love and remorse as honestly as you are able...I hope you and your daughter mend fences. Otherwise I hope you can take comfort in knowing that you have continued to try, as circumstances permit. There are many places to which you can direct your good intentions as they arise...more on that below.

I see you've not murdered or raped anyone in this lifetime. You are already doing better than some. Many of us have been murdered or raped by someone in either this life or a past life. Perhaps in a past life you did murder or rape someone..and now in this life you've only raped folks of their money online, LOL...Maybe you are still working through some predatory urges and inclinations, but perhaps you are taming them and learning to channel them into something more productive or at least more profitable.

If you feel that you are unethical in your business dealings, perhaps you can reflect and see where you might change or at least contribute some profits to charity...or else give of your time to those who are disadvantaged, etc.

All the best...peace & blessings,
7L