[Dragonfly1]

Hi Sparrow,
Its been a very long time since Ive spoken to you or been on SF for that matter. my husband of 33 years passed away on 16th November '18...I miss him terribly..he is my second husband to leave me and I feel at a loss to know why? I feel lost alone and as though I don't fit here anymore...yet I'm still here...I haven't felt his presence at all but I hear him speak to me, or its just my mind wanting it so much. I sat with him as he passed but I didn't sense him leave I held his hand for 5 hours just sitting watching him waiting for him to say...just joking... he looked peaceful and asleep...not gone...but I got a push from the beyond to leave....I knew if I left I would be alone...again...I'm so very sad...and all of what Ithough I knew is gone...I really know nothing but sadness and emptiness...has he really gone sparrow..or is it my sorrow hiding him.... I felt my first husband strongly 38 years ago today...but nothing from my Ron....