I need to vent this here because thers nowhere else I can sanely talk about it.
Firstly, I am an avid and constant dreamer. I've met special beings, tangled with shapeshifters, and even battled the grim reaper himself (and won with a sickle to the skull! lol). But this one I had last night baffled me beyond belief and now I question reality. It makes me want to sit under a tree by a river and meditate all day...
I will skip the graphic details, but ultimately I was witnessing something I could not believe was happening in front of my eyes. I questioned that it HAD to be a dream, at which point a woman pulls me into the bathroom and tells me to look into the mirror to prove it to myself that it is or isn't a dream.
I looked at myself and examined every hair and pour on my face. Everything checked out. I was shaven the same way I had last known. Everything was exactly as it should. i then pinched my chest. She laughed that "I'm sure you have more tests to do." My mind was there. In every essence I was fully awake and everything that was happening was real...
But I still couldnt believe it. She shut the door and we whispered about it. My mouth was dry. She offered water "Not tap water" she knew I hate tap water and grabbed a bottle. I drank and kept questioning how this could be happening, and why everyone is just accepting it. My reality and sanity was falling apart. I was in awe. Beyond belief. (There are no words to describe what my mind was going through. I'm still baffled. It should have been a lucid dream, but this woman had proved that it wasn't). Until I began questioning that spirits must be possessing everybody in the house... And that's when i awoke.
I kicked myself like "I knew it had to be a dream! Why couldn't I just suspend my disbelief and go with it?!?" I'm super curious where that dream would have gone if I just went with it and potentially traumatized myself. I've been lucid many times. but I can only describe that as beyond lucid. I was only asleep for a few hours and it looked like it had rained through those hours, even though it's been super sunny today and the day before. This unknowingly happened through the mass shooting in NS (2 nights before I dreamt of being in a church shooting), as well I released something the day before which went more public than anything else i've done. And of course during Corona and I'm caught up in the conspiracy side of it.
Truly bizarre. Is there too much going on? Did my mind just need to blow me away from it all? I don't expect answers, just trying to wrap this up.
Cheers for reading. I need a drink
