[Honza]

I think this is who I am. I understand the principles of I AM, and they do make some sense. But ultimately I am not convinced. I have greater realisations that I am not God than I do that I am God. In many ways I do not even want to be God.

There is a force at work which is coercing me to call myself God. I understand that this is my problem. It could be a simple Freudian Ego problem. Perhaps I am suppressed or repressed in some way.

Simply put I would rather be a free man than God. You will say why not just accept that and go your own path. But as I said there is this tremendous force pushing me into accepting that I am God. It is really quite nasty. It makes me react and deny myself even more.

It is all very psychologically screwed up. But I am working upon it.