Hi Revya...
Only answering here because you asked
Now, mind you, I've only read two posts of yours, and what came to me (after the first one) was anger and frustration. Then reading a second post, my feelings were confirmed, so I think.
What I am going by is the energy I felt by these two posts at the time... I haven't spoken to you nor interacted elsewhere, so of course my assumption may be well off the mark.
What I sense is a person who knows the meaning of struggles and hardships and has come a long way. A person who has built character.
Like I said, this may be off, but thank you for allowing expression.