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Old 21-02-2018, 04:59 PM
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Originally Posted by Nitiananda
My father is also a lion. And all his life he taught me mind-reason. It's not treated by them .. Therefore, I'm allergic to apparently people with such a work of consciousness. If the people practiced for 5 years and did not outlive the Ego, it's still forgivable, but if 30 then this is sadness.
By the way, a very clogged anahata gives such a job of consciousness. And if they were often engaged in strong techniques, they would have outlived it long ago.
What I am saying is it helps to fully know/understand somebody and where they are coming from before jumping to conclusions and you're slowly getting to know me, so that is nice. You may understand this more.

I'll tell you a story about Anahata...it's a weird story, bear with me.

I had a very traumatic and abusive upbringing. I also am on the Autism Spectrum and I make no excuses FOR that...however, I am not capable of feeling empathy, compassion or even love towards my 'fellow man' but I do not feel any hatred or animosity either...I am quite emotionally ambivalent...so, you could say that my Anahata Chakra is 'clogged' or 'blocked' or something...and yet, I can feel other things. I remember the first time I saw this...my heart chakra literally exploded:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jSRBEPzci-o

When I saw Shankar Mahadevan sing Mahaprana Deepam...I was rolling on the floor in sublime ecstasy:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1lPozjD-WJA

Now, all the names of Shiva in that...the most powerful, divine invocation.

I also have no real family...no friends...no social contacts, really...I'm pretty much a recluse...I only had a little puppy...my only friend and companion...a little Shih Tzu...he died 2 years ago and when he did, I was beside myself with grief for weeks...and so, I am able to have a fully open heart chakra...despite the 'requirements' others say that you must 'feel this' or 'experience that' for anahata to be open, closed or whatever...

Thing is, what is 'normal' in most cases is totally abnormal to me and yet, it is also normal to ME and nobody else...and that's where the whole thing gets difficult.
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