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That's the whole point about what is called 'initiaton'. It's a process where subconscious elements of ourselves emerge to be seen and then integrated and consciously managed (I won't say 'controlled' because that doesn't convey it somehow.)
This of course, is a work-in-progress. But what you describe is something everyone has. Stuff -under the surface. Make friends with it.
Badger makes a good point. On the Astral, subconscious parts of ourselves/desires/fears etc come to the forefront. We can go out with the noblest of intentions, but what we really are/feel etc deep down is likely to be the reality we find ourselves in to a great degree.
Meditation will help to put you in touch with your eternal self....who is the perfect Manager for all this stuff.
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