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I had something similar to me happen. There was about a 2 month period of intense 24/7 bliss, then things seem to come in cycles. Good for 3 months, bad for 3, good for 6, bad for 6, etc.
Eventually I got tired of the intensity and sought to end the experience. However my soul battled me and never gave up even when I basically self-destructed. At some point my ego gave up and diminished to a manageable level. Now I have found a good middle ground between being myself (ego) and allowing enough space for the spirit to come through from time to time.
It's a fun journey. In the beginning I was all about rushing. Now I'm enjoying the cycles and the slow progress.
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