I enjoyed your story.
I ponder that Question too.."Why do I feel so good?"
There are lots of people more deserving of this feeling than me,people who help the poor,sick and needy.I don't help a lot of people so why do I deserve this powerful love?......I don't know.
My answers to the question have been.
Its spirit.
Its your spirit.
Its your soul.
Its the holy spirit.
Its God.
Its the part of me that is God.
Its Energy.
Its Kundalini
Its all of the above.
Maybe Everybody feels like this but they have just gotten used to it.
I believe I will figure it out when I die....The bigger picture will unfold
Today it's so much stronger after a trigger this morning.
The one thing that I am sure of is that it gets stronger the deeper I go into and feel my Emotions