[7luminaries]

Originally Posted by Compendium

My soul is very tired, I have a lot of trouble dealing with people face to face to the point it is painful and leaves me drained for days. With my awakening I could not understand why I decided to reincarnate. As I do not belong here my time has come and gone. Why do I attract certain people to me? Usually they are in need of help and in turn I am attracted to places such as forums or types of social media and then once I have served my purpose I move on as I am attracted somewhere else. I have recognized this as part of my purpose. According to my numerology I have zero Karma to atone for and I actually believe that. What is even harder to explain is my overwhelming desire to go home since my earliest memories it is all I ever wanted.

Compendium, hello there...it seems you realise you came to serve...and understandably you find it is exhausting b/c so few (relatively) are awakened beyond the most rudimentary levels...though I think the tide is shifting a bit as the youngest gens won't tolerate the same level of rubbish and bias as they see all round them. Idealism is good and service is beautiful...as they gain experience, they'll figure out more practical ways. Tis ever the way.

But if you are much over like 20, LOL, the lack of awareness in the culture is huge and likewise thus the burden of need is overwhelming...or it can certainly seem that way.

I hope you can take heart and be kind and nurturing to yourself. Your work is important, on any scale, big or small. I would only add...it's ok and in fact quite good and healthy to maintain firm boundaries, so as not to let others drain you needlessly or to take advantage. It's more than ok to say, so sorry, but I'm exhausted & will have to take a pass.

Also -- and I really cannot stress this enough -- if you need some love, talk therapy or conversation, support, healing, or energy, ASK the transcendental guides (many call them angels). It's ok to ask...you are not being selfish!!! After all, you've got work to do and you need to stay strong and balanced

Peace & blessings
7L