[Gemini46]

I first realized this a little over 3 years ago, that I was in fact the male soul a majority of the time. Most of the time I am asleep to that fact but I have been growing more and more conscious of it lately.

I have been aware of my twin's physical existence about 7 years ago. Since then he has had 2 people he mainly used as a catalyst. Shortly after I became aware of him he attached himself to someone I believed to be my twin. That relationship drove me crazy literally. After 3 years I had enough and severed the connection and it popped up in someone else. I was confused and very cautious with the 2nd person, never really 100% letting myself believe they were my twin. It's been about 3 years 8-9 mos now and while the second catalyst and I still definitely have a bond I hope never breaks as he has helped me more than anyone ever could and we both care very much about each other. However, my TF energy has just shifted once again, sending me on a whole new adventure it would seem.

I have been getting all sorts of flashbacks from when my TF first appeared. A few weeks ago I heard this annoying song on the radio that was the first channel my twin used to talk to me. I hadn't heard or thought about that song in years. The song is "I won't give up" by Jason Mraz. Before I heard my twin through it I had no interest listening to that song. It was one of those songs you always change when it comes on because you find it unappealing. After that though I had a new found love for that stupid song and when I heard it the other week I just had to listen to it. A few days ago I stumbled across the website that first introduced me to the concept of twin flames. I hadn't been on that website since. The other week I was thinking about it but had long forgotten what the name of the website was. I poked around on there for awhile and when I saw a topic on male souls having a female experience. I have been thinking about that a lot lately so I clicked on it and really reflected on it.

I have been noticing that lately I have been trying to become the female soul. Both consciously and unconsciously. There have been several times within the last few months that I remember being her. Those times my memory feels more dreamlike than an actual memory but I had recognized myself as the female during these times.

Anyone else have something like this going on?