[mystical]

i feel i have to say that our journeys with our soul connections really do test us and push us past our comfort zones .... just as we are about to give up , we are flooded with more emotions , emotions we felt were numb too or emotions we thought had been previously healed , that sinking feeling in the pits of our tummys and hearts becomes "ill ". we become weary , we become bogged down with blockages . and the more this happens the more we cannot hear what our gut and heart are telling us , we then feel sick , rejecting all that we believe in , we then torture ourselves we weave this web of negativity and we become caught up in all the messy side of it because we then lose our vision too and slowly , but surely we lose more .. faith , hope , courage , energy , and most of all ... WE THINK WE LOSE ... LOVE ... but we dont how can we , its within us all . we are then needing the "egos " form of love , the hugs the kisses etc , what we really are in need of is expression , to be able to exopress the love we feel within , its why we have this sense of sadness about us . because we have all this love with nowhere to direct it but its suppose to be directed inwardly .........remember when you feel like giving up when you feel you cant do this no more , when you feel that im so tired , when you feel what is the whole point , know that you are indeed missing the point ... the point being that your soul connection is a mirror of you , so by cutting them off you are indeed cutting YOU off , and you wil always come back to this connection ... this connection although is about them , it is more ABOUT you . you and service to others , that serice being ... helping one another to open their hearts and keep it open it doesnt matter iof the twins or sm , never return because you can neevr be seperated , they are always within u , we eat , sleep and breathe them , we carry their essence within us . but by givin up on them you give up on you . others lok to us because they so want to believe that love is real , that true love is there ,and the love we and others feel is sumthing that the ego has taught us , for example .... if he loved me he would .... if she loved me she would ..... or if he/she loved me they should ..... when in actual fact , we have been taught or being taught that this isnt what love is all about , ... love is feeling that person within u , love is seeing that person for who they are within , love is about being connected to our brothers and sisters , and connecting to our mother and father . divine and perfect love . and that divine light is within everyone . remember by giving up on yourself and your connection your giving up on all those people out there who neeed us , who need us to help show them what true love , what divine love is all about ,who need us to be an inspiration to them , to give them sumthing to believe in and hope for . and if that means hoping , and praying and believing til the day we pass over then thats what we must do , we may never be with our twins in this lifetime again , but we WILL be with them when we pass over . afterall remember that life is eternal , we do not die , its only the body that dies , the soul continues , so yes one day u will be with your connection . we all have this knowledge within us , to access . its just a case of REMEMBERING , remembering who you are , and where you come from .!!!