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I'm going to back up what others have said. You are being faced with similiar challenges right now...and that scar is to remind you to be strong...you already been down that road before.
This is another chance, to grow beyond your old ways, to have courage to keep moving forward, faith that it's going to work out, and new memories to remind you that life goes on.
I also have a past life as a suicide, I think many of us do...some of us are more prone to it. We think about it more...it's like I go through a dark period, then come right out if it. It's always close to me though. I've been this way since I was a kid...and I do not have depression, bipolar, ECT...I might go through bouts here and there...but I've always come out of it, and I am not medicated or anything.
However, when I go through dark periods, and I think about suicide...I've noticed, that those dark periods are my body and souls way of purging negative energies and emotions. It usually doesn't last long...maybe a week, and afterwards, I feel like a clean slate. I'm just very sensitive, and I have to go through it, to get rid of the garbage I collect, cling to, and invite in.
But, I've just learned why I go through these dark periods, and it's okay...or it will be okay soon. This is a sign I made progress in this life, I learned something about myself...I'm not fixed, and I haven't "made it" but I am a work in progress, slowly and surely. Those two small steps of patience and letting go, taught me something that I didn't consciously know in that life.
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