This is very true. I just strongly feel ill die in this life promoting love unity harmony.

But. I've been detached for so long. Then these visions this girl find me. In a year. You just by this small amount must see what a significant change that is.
This time last year I thought the vision was a one off and me tripping or.
Now. I know. I know I know.
But I'm so alone. Apart from right now. I can't express my gratitude at being able to speak freely without fear. I live in paranoia of government military and police because I'm so opposed to the illuminate (for an easier description of those in power)

But it's a lot to take in. In one year especially.
I know I have this gift if music and intelligence and conversation for something.

I didn't go to school. I didn't have friends.... I've had a really secular isolated troubled childhood.
And then all this happens.
Seriously 14 months ago I was just waiting to die.
And now I'm not afraid of death but I want to live. And feel. And make my reality the world's reality.

But that guy in my head knows more than I do. And feeling as alone as I do recently. I need him. There are few people I can trust with my ambitions.