yeah its been this way sine I can remember. iv thought about this a lot and have reflected and when I was younger I was always open about what I could do at the time and my parents have always been supportive but I remember my friend were not so much. they told me that I wasnt actually doing what I said I could do that it was just my imagination and of course I believed them. deep down I knew it was real, but I doubted it and chalked it up as imagination. I think thats what gets in my way now I still doubt my abilities. there are times when I just atomatically know whats being asked of me from our furry friends and reacted without thinking but I guess when I actually try to practice and strengthen I still doubt myself and I guess thats something I should tackle first.