Perhaps you are trying to hard to force something between the two of you. Maybe you might feel more calm if you use acceptance and trust. If you believe in a higher power, or God or the universe charting your course, perhaps you can lean on that and simply move on in your life and focus on YOU.

If you can truly get to that place that there are some things we simply have no control over, you will be much more at peace.

I would also ask yourself why you feel you need this connection.

Perhaps, you are not completely comfortable or happy in your own marriage or within yourself. I would hate to think you are depending on this man as a crutch for your own happiness. Ask yourself why you need to be connected to 'anything.'

Happiness cannot be given by another; we find it within ourselves and in the way we think, view life, others and ourselves.

I hope this helps some.