I asked my guides how many times I've been here, and that's what they told me. But I'm one of those people who always has to check, double check and recheck. And every time, they always tell me the same number. Mostly, I feel tired in my spirit, but this life has been particularly draining on me and my body is quite out of shape as well. But I do go through bursts of being energized and ready, willing and able to help out as much as I can, and then feel drained, it's kind of like that roller coaster feeling.