Well see its Wednesday so I go to silent mode today - but usually renege on this by Thursday - last week he turned up on Mu doorstep lol...Monday isn't for another 5 days - ill let you know then hahaha maybe I could start early and not renege today/tomorrow! Let it fly for a whole week - of course that would probably take some alien confiscating my phone for a week as sheer willpower alone will be difficult but how about I give it a try huh lol X

It's laughable because it is so predictive - he doesn't want me hurting, he wants me there - but he doesn't want me right now - as that wld mean dealing with **** he has admitted he isnt ready to deal with - but in doing so I buy into the emotional merry to round staying on the ride hoping for a different experience - maybe I just need to sit the ride out for a few go rounds :)