I had a great session with my counselor.
This is what we discussed.
My mother's anxiety and maybe I took that on as a child as transference which makes sense.
How to cope with anxiety, breathing, telling anxiety to go away, and the "does the evidence support what you are thinking right now?" Ie if I'm scared of going to work because I'm scared someone will need ie CPR and i'm the only nurse on the unit I may think I can't handle it, but in the past the evidence has shown I've done CPR by myself in home health so yes I can handle it.
Why I wanted approval from my family and never got it and can't let that go, he said that hisortorically approval was always given to the younger people in the family and he said that's why people join gangs, because they need a family, they get approval and respect etc.
So this is what I want to manifest for myself
To be able to control my anxiety so it doesn't run my life. IE if I wake up in the morning nervous (which is every morning) I will know how to manage it without medication
To let go of what I want from my family and to give myself self approval.
that's it for now :)
Thanks for listening
Spiritlite.
