Dear MrNiceGuy, good luck with your continued recovery. I was "rehabilitated" as a teen, through a program called Laws for Living. It teaches that you are viewing everything you perceive, one of three ways, either through the eyes of Love, anger, or fear. This was taught to prisoners, at some of the nations toughest prisons, with an 80% something success rate. Many lives were changed for the better. Here is a few youtube links, to help you get started understanding. These teachings give a deeper understanding, to a higher way, that is not normally understood by western minds. Dr Michael Ryce is the only person I know that teaches this course at the time. Hope some if the links I've enclosed will help you to understand, you are Loved, and can correct your own errors. Hang in there!

The destructive power of hostility and fear:
http://youtu.be/1YSpA9EAC6M
Practicing Regulatory Speech:
http://youtu.be/I9RHYm7Ws5I
The Eye is the Lamp of the body:
http://youtu.be/4ZDOhhMKvLc

Love (khooba) is the ancient Law, which all the Laws hang upon.
My hope is, you all find it and live it, in the now!

This link will fully explain where these teachings come from and the deeper meanings.
http://www.iloveulove.com/history/enlightenment.htm

Dr. Ryces and his wife are friends of mine. He learned these teachings from the same men I did. You may enjoy his translation of the Lords Prayer from Aramaic, and the deeper insights into the Beatitudes also. Hope you can find Love, truth, and peace, for yourself in these links.
www.whyagain.com