Yep, I think a lot of what you have been through is relatable to many of us!
***I mourn the loss of the person you showed yourself to me to be. I grieve for what I thought you were or who I wanted you to be. The intellectual you, the thoughtful you, is who you came on strong as.*** This esp. resonate. I wouldn't say shallow but definitely focused on own self without fully grasping the impact. Yes, this forum is def. therapy