Saggi I hope you know I wasnt being harsh or critical. I just wanted to ease your mind about the things going on with you. I feel it is important when we are on a spiritual path to be "hyper aware" of everything that is going on around us. The problem with that is that when you are sensitive it can cause you fear. I dont know if you believe in Angels or Guides but they work very hard to keep us from being fearful.They dont want us to be afraid of death and they dont want us to fear losing someone. For every loss we endure we grow spiritually and for the person who has passed we can take comfort in knowing they have moved on to a higher state of consciousness. I hope things get better for everyone..again my prayers are with you and those you hold dear!!