Thanks guys. As for the reiki I've been trying that as well primarily for releasing these emotions(boy did I hold alot back)... the lady who does it for me is pretty good. She worked primarily on my head-think this might have been her trying to open me up further ( last time it was primarily my upper back). She mentioned a little bit of fear in my sacral chamber and she got messages saying speak your truth and be nicer to yourself. Maybe this stuff is karma...infact I wouldn't be surprised if it was because it often comes out of nowhere on full moons or within 3 days of a full moon. All I can say is "the joys of karmic clean up time"! NOT!