I'm happy you're feeling better. Yeah, I can relate to the feeling of loosing your old identity (who you were with the twin flame), I think a lot of people who has gone through painful splits know what you are referring to. I can relate to the desperation as one truly just wants the pain to go away, as soon as possible.

In my own current belief system I think the only real healing has to come from within, with myself doing the hard work of healing and not really having outside forces trying to heal me from, well, the outside, I suppose. Believe me, I would much rather take a magic pill or have outside healing do the trick but perhaps one important lesson, for me, at least, is to learn how to heal myself, it's painful, it takes time, sometimes I have no clue what I am up to, but learning and changing along the way and hopefully healing.