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Fifteen years. I've got so many thoughts and so many feelings, I just do not know where to begin. I'm angry that you now always think the answer to our problems is leaving and you're unable/unwilling to sit down and work things out. You were not always like this. I am sad because every day we are apart, feels like forever and my inner child is lonely without its playmate. I am hurt because you look at me, read me, hear me and still don't think we are worth fighting for. I am embarrassed because I have allowed you to put me through this much and still I desire to be with you. Despite all of my thoughts and all of my feelings, I still love you. and it is so confusing. I have all of this love inside of me and you don't seem to want it, feel it or understand it. I accept that I need this separation as much you seem to want it - I can't hold on anymore. I can't cry anymore and I don't want to. I don't deserve to cry anymore.
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