I did commit suicide in a former life and I was soooo very disappointed in myself. I had gone through babyhood, childhood and teen years. Those babyhood and childhood and teen years were so very important to set the stage for upcoming lessons. So I get a major bump in the road and cash out early. I was disappointed in myself because I had to come back and start all over again. I was pretty hard on myself in this incarnation and heaped up lots of bad stuff.
Just keep going. It won't be a picnic. It's hard, I know. But just keep putting one foot in front of the other. You can make it.
If you hit rock bottom, start picking up rocks.
By embracing my imperfections I am becoming perfect.