I only read your first 2 sentences...now, right there you present a
misunderstanding in your thoughts themselves, my dear...thus, your beliefs.
If you say you always struggle with something ...you always will.
You must understand with every fiber of your being that thoughts, beliefs and your words are SO powerful.
That would be the first step if i were to counsel you in real life...we would work on that in baby steps.
I can not 'tell' you the Universe provides things to you ...and have you get
that deeply into your core belief system that burrows it's way into the subconscious mind.
If you ever need a teacher go to a person that is successful in the subject you want to learn,
just an unsolicited point...to help you in your life to focus on what you want...for your car or your teeth...go to a specialist...
same with the Law of Attraction and how to use it.
Added: You know what I want you to do...get 'The Game of Life and How to Play It"---Florence Scovel Shinn