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Old 31-10-2017, 02:28 PM
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Originally Posted by Wanderer
Hi everyone,

I'd just like to share an experience I had about 9 months ago that I believe really defines the point where I began my spiritual journey in this lifetime.
I know I'm a terrible writer, but experiences like this are so hard to explain, so please bear with me!

It's not meant to be a beautiful poem - just my thoughts and memories.

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As I child, I was taught Christian values by my family.
I learned of God and Jesus, and how each and every person on this earth was loved unconditionally by them.
Including me.
I learned that we should love our neighbors, and we should love our enemies as well.
I accepted this as fact without much thought, and lived a happy childhood.

When I became a teenager, I began to question everything around me.
I began to notice all the hate in this world.
I noticed how people preached God's teachings of unconditional love to others,
Yet condemned those who didn't believe, and said they would burn in Hell.
How was that love?
I became angry at their hypocrisy...I became angry at them.
I became angry at anyone who condemned me,
Anyone who had hurt me or done me wrong.
And, gradually, I became angry at God himself,
And threw away all that I was taught as a child,
And I became hateful as well.

One day, years later, I decided to skip school and go for a walk to think.
Somehow, I felt like I was being called.
I followed it to the outskirts of the city and into nature, and eventually came upon a creek, with clear, pure water, and a large rock in the middle.
I stepped out onto the rock and sat down, thinking to myself.
Why did I feel so much hate?

I reached into the creek and picked up a few large stones,
While picturing all those who had hurt me and done me wrong.
"I forgive you," I whispered for each one,
And threw a stone into the creek.
I threw away my hate for each and every one
I felt a tightness in my chest loosen, a weight lift off my shoulders,
A wonderful energy flood my body and my spirit
and I felt born again.

I left the creek and headed towards a nearby hill,
And ascended along a winding dirt path.
I looked up, and there in the distance
Stood a man and his son, watching me from afar as I walked higher.

The path came to an end, and I turned around,
Facing the whole world below me
And as I stood there, I felt myself become one with everything
My spirit seemed to glow and resonate with the light of the world

I can't explain it, but at that very moment
I finally came to understand just what Love truly is.
Not just an emotion, not a just a feeling,
But an integral part of ourselves; a piece of us all.

So the next time someone asks me, "What is love?"
I'll reply, "Well, it's simple, really,

Love is you and me!"

Wow this is really beautiful to me, truly, it made me cry, because I know what's it like to know Love is the answer, but then suddenly come into doubt about God, and then after learning to forgive and open up to love which lessened the tightness i felt in my own soul.

I was wondering do you still believe in and love God?
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