Day 4 03/29/16
Today I realized there are 3 basic stages to deepening my meditation practice if I really want to experience That, my transcendental Source, within:*
1. Keep Asking Myself "Who Am I?"
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In all your meditations you need to open up the space,
not to own anything,
not to be anything,
not to believe anything.
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Opening up, in the context of today's talk, means opening my ego, purifying my ego, transforming my ego.
The enlightened realization will ultimately be "I own nothing, I am nothing, I know nothing"
or "I am everything, I own everything, I know everything".
In terms of meditation I watch my breathing but I am not my breath.
I label my breath but I know nothing about "breath".
Who is watching?
Who is asking who is watching?
self-inquiry itself takes me deeper and deeper.
But it's a bottomless pit.
The infinite That, pure conscious being is unknowable.
But I can touch it, feel it, know it is there
like the wind on my face
becoming the hurricane in my heart
and then when my mind is tired of thinking
and my heart just wants to feel...
2. Surrender Everything
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Whatever you own, whatever you believe, whatever is existing there in the space, you surrender it."
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realizing I cannot know God
I cannot own God
I cannot believe in God
there is nothing left but for me to surrender to the no-thingness
the "That" that springs out of no-where
when my mind gets so weary of all this thinking
when my ego is no longer interested in attaching itself to anything
it's like falling into a deep sleep while wide awake
yummy...
3. Enjoy the Bliss, When it Comes
This is the magic moment
the opportunity to catch the tiger by its tail
and go for the ride of my life!
oh Grace will you take me now?
Sri Vasudeva ended his guided meditation with a beautiful prayer that I'd like to share with you:
I don't know who I am; I just know that You are.
I don't know where I am going; I just know that You are.
I need You to inspire my mind.
I need You to drive me through this human experience.
I need my “I” to be driven by You.
You are the love that is within me.
You are the Light that spreads through my being.
You are the wisdom that manifests in my mind.
You are everything to me.
You are all that I am and more.
I cannot imagine That which You are, but I am content just to revel in your existence in me.
I am happy that you are holding me.
Oh infinite Self You are That,
Tat Twam Assi "That thou are art"
my mind cannot conceive of Your greatness
but my heart can feel Your presence of love
hold me in Your infinite being
take me through this journey of life
open my consciousness that i may feel more of Your existence in me
fill my being with Your light
and i pray that i can be aware of Your existence within me
in every moment of my existence
take away all feelings of unworthiness
because of Your existence in me I am always worthy
You make me worthy
let me never feel separate from You
let me always know that You are taking care of me
You are holding me
You are carrying me
my ego seeks only you to be renewed
i bow to you oh Supreme One
my heart my mind my body the all of me are offered to You
aum peace peace peace
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*quotes are all by Sri Vasudeva from today's talk (link)