[Michelle11]

Originally Posted by Colorado

I really enjoy listening to you & reading your posts....you have a gift with words & being able to really understand other people. It makes a person feel good just to read your posts, even when they are not directed at me personally & I am reading someone else's post you are responding to, that I couldn't have expressed or said better....that kind of wisdom, sincerity & expression really affects us all...directly & indirectly. I am thankful you are here...Thank you, Michelle for taking the time out of your day to listen & respond, unbiasedly & honestly.

Oh wow, that was a very nice thing to say. It means more to me than you know. I try to always first be kind but I’m not always that way towards myself so it is nice to be appreciated. Life can make you question things so thank you for saying that. Hugs.

I am impressed with your memory. I remember very little from when I was young and absolutely nothing from when I was a baby. You see babies who are isolated like that and hope they don’t have ill effects from the experience but it shows they are more aware then we give them credit. Well seems like you turned out well for not being given that mommy child bonding period in your first few years. They do say if a child isn’t held much in the early years it can have a major impact on their well being for life.

It definitely can be easy to miss the signs. I agree we shouldn’t run around looking for them because it’s like forcing life and then they won’t come. But the more we notice the more they do show up. I had the song the Yellow Submarine stuck in my head day in and day out for a good 5 years straight playing over and over again in my head while I was bartending in my 20s. I was so unnerved by it that I didn’t tell anyone because I really thought my brain had shorted out. I was running from my emotions at the time so trying to act like I was strong when I was a mess inside so mental health was something I dare not look at and a song playing over and over incessantly in your head seemed not normal. Interestingly enough the song stopped once I quit the bar. I kind of see now it was intended to help me look at the world with a bit more compassion because I was getting kind of bitter because the drunk people were giving me a hard time and I was losing my faith in humanity. So the song was trying to help me see we are all in the same boat trying to get along with life.

Anyways the songs stopped for a long time or I stopped noticing them until a health scare with my heart came up and then after that was done they kept on after I fell into depression. They really have been a godsend truly saving my life. And I have opened up to messages from a number of other areas, not just music so it is kind of cool but you do just have to put your questions out there and let them go and then the guidance will just show up and fall into your lap. It’s really magical the way it happens. I do think the more we notice though our soul sees we have caught on and will continue to send messages that way so I would not be surprised if music started to pop up more and more for you. But I do think when we miss things, even if we look back and wonder how or why because it was so blatantly clear, it really just means we may not have been ready to really see things at that time. There was a lot going on with my head during those bar years and I am not sure I was emotionally stable enough to handle looking at things yet so I think the experience was just to prepare me for when the lyrics would really matter. The important thing is you did notice and are open to it now. They are a huge help and will help light the way.

Oh my, sounds like your family is pretty religious and afraid of anything outside that mindset. I will admit that none of the male figures in my life have any clue about my fierce spiritual side. They know even less about some of the things I have experienced and I am ok with that. It just seemed to me easier to keep that part of me private as opposed to my beliefs being discounted. I did take a coaching class once and that sent my boyfriend into a bit of a tizzy at first because I kind of suspect he thought maybe I was going to try and force him to change but once he saw that I wasn’t he let me be. And they do then turn to your example. So I guess I am saying it’s ok to have separate interests from your family. We don’t have to be totally in agreement with everything in our life and have all the same interests for a relationship to work. If I don’t feel like I would get adequate support from someone for my way of life then I’m Ok with keeping it private. You are a very kind caring person yourself from all you have said. You can stand tall in your beliefs and gifts and if there are people in your life who are unable to allow you to be you then just let them be but know in your heart you have nothing to be ashamed about. Anyone who tries to do that is not coming from a loving place and therefore their motives are likely coming from a place of fear which has no bearing on who you are as a person. Even if you can’t share this part of you with everyone you know you found yourself at this forum for a reason and likely it means you are ready to open back up to your spiritual gifts. Sounds like you have many. Hugs.