I agree with you about making it public not being the best. I especially don't mean going on the evening news of course but just bringing it to the attention of a small group of scientists.
Do you think there's a way of learning how to block/control it without making it public?
Also what's morally wrong with accepting reality, I'm not sure I understand what you mean?
Its really good to hear that i'm not alone, I'd still love to feel what its like to hear someone else's thoughts it would give some great perspective and maybe help me control my brain?