I like the flower scenario too checkmate! That actually makes a lot of sense. I know something is there, but it's a matter of understanding what triggered this to happen.

And thanks desert rat. I have actually tried PL hypnosis with someone who was really really good...but my problem is my ego is too afraid of seeing it. I also tried tapes and things, but I get too anxious. A healer I go see agreed with me that there is something I am trying to block out, which makes it hard to heal it if I am too afraid to work on it hahaha. But that is another story!