How to survive
 

you know what. what inika?

if i could give out an instruction manual to children coming into the earth. i'd make sure the number one instruction was to hold onto narcissim. yep. you got to bound yourself up tightly into your own self and own world. you got to ego separate and strive to be special in your narc individual self. you need to hold a bit of narc. even if just a bit to survive here.

there has got to be an invisible film between us all. because i kidd you not, if you could even for a second possibly feel all the emotional pain of every individual self expression here you'd just not cope without a little bit of narc ignorance. you have to shut off or else you feel too much. you cant feel it all as one and all connected as one. because its not true. the narc in us keeps us in individual I AM so we dont 'have' to be or feel connected to each other. go ahead, choose if you wanna, free will. ignore anything else you want. intolerate this and that. to survive. you cant be one. you have to be the one that its all about and what you say or do and how it effects others is not your problem because we're not connected. didn't happen to me. only you. you have to discard who doesnt match your beliefs. the film keeps us separated in order to survive.

you can feel one or two, maybe three people and have a little tearful moment for their pain. but not everyone on this planet and certainly not all at once. you'll never feel that. if you did and do. you'd not make it here mentally.

you got to hold a bit of tough barrier. its a bit of narc and its totally ignorant, even towards seeing even a speck of it in the self.

It's ok, if not ideal, to be the only person who can meet your very own needs, there's no need to beat yourself up about it. It doens't mean that you are a narcissist or have to see yourself as one, you're just looking to take care of yourself, or to protect yourself.